Sweet Caroline

June 4th 2013 

I was sitting at work (Hampton Inn) my aunt called me and said "Hey baby go take a pregnancy test".

Startled at what she was saying i said i have not even missed a period why do i need to take a test?

She replied "I had a dream about your daddy last night and when i dream about people who have passed usually means somebody close to me is pregnant. Just run over to Walmart buy a test take it and call me back." 

So off to Walmart i went not even thinking i was pregnant. I got a pregnancy test, came back to work and took it. POSITIVE... I was shocked. 

I called her back and said well it is positive. 

I was so scared i had just lost my first baby two short months before. I called Dustin and told him the news he was thrilled. I was still just scared, what if the same thing happened again. 

I made a Dr appointment and i heard my sweet girls heart beat at around 6 weeks. I could have not been more excited to see that little dot on the ultrasound screen and hear that faint heart beat.

Everything went well with my pregnancy with Caroline, I carried her 39 weeks

February 10th 2014. 

On the day that marked week 39 i was induced. They broke my water at 7AM. My Dr was stuck in Dallas due to snow so another Dr had to start my labor. I had a hard deliver with her, i thought i would never see her.  I started pushing around 11:30AM and after 4 1/2 long hours of tears, sweat and vomit at 4:06PM I gave birth to a 7:1oz 19 1/2in long cute baby girl. She had a big head due to having to use the four-sips to pull her out. But she was healthy and red headed and my heart was so happy. I did not get to enjoy much or my first night with my new baby i did not get to see her first bath, i did not get to change her first diaper, feed her her first bottle, or put her first outfit on her. I was in so much pain i had to take pain medicine every 4 hours after giving birth to her. I cried because i was helpless and wanted to do for my sweet new baby girl. 

After we got home and everything was in order i felt so much better and could enjoy my sweet baby.

How we dealt with Miscarriage.

Having a miscarriage is hard, its even more hard on a freshly married couple. 

We lost our first baby in mid April 2013 I was devastated. I wondered why God would give me a baby for only 8 short weeks. Why did he even allow me to get pregnant and find out i was pregnant if he was just going to take my baby way from me before i could even hear his or her heat beat. 

On the morning i lost the baby, I woke up, went to the restroom like most people do first thing in the morning. I noticed a little blood so I called Dustin in the bath room. He told me go ahead and take a shower and he would call my Dr office that i had not been to yet because i had not even had my first appointment. The nurse (Lindsey) told Dustin to tell me to come in right away. All the way to the Dr office i was reading on my phone what could cause you to bleed in your first trimester. Of course i was only thinking miscarriage in the back of my mind but my heart kept telling me it could be anything. So that 15 minute wait in the waiting room seemed like an hour as i was still reading stuff on my phone, Dustin told me to stop. 

The nurse called us back and did an ultrasound and there was no heart beat or baby i had already passed the baby. And right then and there i had a melt down, just like that the baby was gone. I sat in the ultrasound room for what seemed like forever trying to gather myself before walking back out to get lab work done to make 100% sure i did not need a DNC. I sat in the chairs waiting for lab work and cried and cried and cried. I was so excited to be having a baby that was very unexpected, I cried when i found out i was pregnant because i was so nervous, but i was thankful that God trusted me enough to carry a baby i had not even planned for. 

Then all in the blink of an eye God took the baby. I was heart broken but i am a pretty strong person. As days went by i would cry to Dustin about the baby. As weeks went by i kept telling myself this is God's plan not mine. 

Our LOVE story.

In August 2012 i was invited to a wedding. It was a very small wedding nothing big and special so i went right after work on a Sunday. I was late of course. I walked in took a site and enjoyed the wedding. After the wedding i caught the bouquet (: None of the other girls seemed interested in even trying to catch it so i took it open myself to jump in front of them all and catch it. After the wedding i was standing around with a group of friends talking about going down town later that night, we all decided to go. That was the day i meet Dustin, my charming handsome husband. I was not that interested at the time i had my mind somewhere else, little did i know Dustin was interested and slowly he swept me right off my feet. We stated hanging out about two weeks later and basically have been together since. We started dating the first day of September 2012. He had just returned home from Iraq and been released from the Army(82nd Airborne). So he was ready to settle down and start a family. I had no clue what i was getting myself into. Two short months later i moved in with Dustin at his parents house. We spent our first Thanksgiving, and Christmas there. In March 2013 we bought our first home together. In mid March Dustin and I found out we were expecting a sweet baby (about 4 weeks along). March 31st 2013 Easter Sunday, i had to work i was a desk clerk at a Hampton Inn at the time. I got off work at 3PM came home and Dustin had made me an Easter basket with candy, pacifiers for the new baby, and a lot of plastic eggs. Well i was checking my eggs for candy i asked him do they all have the same candy his reply was "check and see" so i started opening the eggs. I opened the yellow egg my Favorite color... and there fell out my engagement ring i was so thrilled Dustin got down on one knee and asked me to marry him of course i said YES! 

Two short days later on April 2nd 2013 we went to the court house and go married, I had no insurance so i needed to be on his to go to the Dr for my pregnancy. We plan to have a REAL wedding at our 5 or 10 year anniversary! 

About Me!

I'm Nikki.
I am a Mother, Wife, Sister, Daughter, Aunt and Friend.
Everyday is something new.